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Monday, December 17, 2018

A Place to Hide


Assalamualaikum

I've been watching Charlie Puth's concert in Instagram, and that's awesome, really. And, the most beautiful thing is, when he sang his song We Don't Talk Anymore in Seoul, he sang featured with Jeon Jungkook from BTS, OMG! That's really a superb concert for the fans. Here's his new song, always stuck in my head, recently. 

Cuz all I wanna do is just hold somebody 
But no one ever wants to get to know somebody 
If you go and look under the surface 
Baby I'm a little insecure 

And that's OK 
I promise myself one day 

Imma tell em' all 
Imma tell em' all that 
You could either hate me or love me 
But that's just the way I am 
Imma tell em' all 
Imma tell em' all that 
You could either hate me (hate me) or love me (love me) 
But that's just the way I am 
 *Charlie Puth - The Way I Am 

See you 
Wassalam

Tuesday, December 11, 2018

Hello Yellow!

Autumn Leaves

Taken @ Haneul Park, Seoul
Samsung A8 2018
F/1.7 ISO-40
Snapseed

Thursday, December 6, 2018

You, Choose One

Finding happiness silently

Taken @ Chungmu-ro, Jung-gu, Seoul
Samsung A8 2018
F/1.7 ISO-40
Snapseed

One Day, I'll Feel It Too


Assalamualaikum

These days I've been busy with some works to do but still having some pleasures to satisfied myself, and yeah, this song from Ed Sheeran about couple who breaks up and finding new happiness, but still hoping and waiting for the ex to come back. No, it's not my story and it's not like...I hope he will be back with me again, I just love the lyrics, the touching love story I guess, but I love it hahahha :)

Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody love you like I do
Promise that I will not take it personal baby
If you're moving on with someone new

Cause baby you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'll feel it too
And until then I'll smile to hide the truth
But I know I was happier with you
*Ed Sheeran - Happier

See you
Wassalam

Saturday, November 10, 2018

Are You Living in My Heart?

Stay with me, are you living deep in my heart?
EXO Chanyeol, PUNCH - Stay With Me

Taken @ Joongang Highschool, Jongno-gu, Seoul
Samsung A8 2018
F/1.7 ISO-40
Snapseed

Monday, November 5, 2018

Don't Mess Up My Boys


Assalamualaikum

Woohoooo!! EXO is coming for sure yeah! And you know what? The concept is just...OH-MY-GOD! Can't believe EXO did it. The motorcycle concept is really a dream come true. For this comeback, Lay is only join in Chinese version but who cares when they're all coming back this time, right? Now, I'm waiting for the official album coming to my door, really can't wait >.< Oh yeah, one thing you should know about EXO, they did the Quintuple Million Selling Album just in Pre-Order session. See? How can I not in love with them? Just don't mess up with my boys hhaha :P 

See you 
Wassalam

Saturday, October 6, 2018

Impossible (?)

When you have eliminated the impossible

Taken @ Kid City, Bandung
Canon EOS M10
F/5.6 ISO-1600

Feel Lost and Left Out


Assalamualaikum

Found this music video while I was searching for some heartbroken songs. Well, this song is the best hit at the time and become my anthem song with my best friends since junior high school. It really touched my heart when someone who didn't know who you were but still keep asking why would you do some stupid things. Errrhh...Welcome to my life, then.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you're screaming? 
*Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

See you
Wassalam

Hard to Say Good Bye

Assalamualaikum

This past month, I really sad and can't think about anything because I was crying hard everytime I feel alone or depressed, like literally, depressed. I don't know how to say it in words but sure, it feels like I can't think straight at the time.

Dua bulan belakangan ini aku rasanya nangis mulu deh. Suerr sedih banget, bawaannya mellow abis padahal yaa hatiku ga lagi galau atau baper, nonton drakor juga ga pernah sampe pake hati karena nonton itu pake mata ya guys bukan hati #eeaaa :) So, why would I cried all the time if there's nothing to worry about? Jadi gini, aku ditinggal sama orang-orang baik yang dekat denganku. Baiknya seperti apa, yaa gabisa dijabarin satu-satu tapi intinya kebaikan mereka dan sikap mereka ke aku itu ngena banget sampe rasanya kehilangan banget pas tau mereka pergi. Well, they're not leaving like uhmm...mereka hanya pindah mutasi, resign dan pindah lokasi tapi tetep aja sedih.

Dan dalam dua bulan ini, aku ngerasa sedih banget karena kok kayanya makin berkurang orang-orang baik di sekitarku, aku jadi gada temen curhat, gada yang bisa dimintain nasehat, gada yang bisa dibully kalo lagi bete dan yang paling sedih adalah gada lagi yang bisa memback-up aku baik dalam hal pekerjaan maupun diluar kerjaan. Yaa emang sih temenku masih banyak yang lain juga dan kemungkinan ketemu mereka juga ada, tapi aku tetep ngerasa kehilangan banget. Aku juga cukup tau kalo ada pertemuan pasti ada juga perpisahan, tapi aku ga nyangka aja bakalan secepat ini berpisahnya. Dimana-mana perpisahan itu pasti menyedihkan, iya ga? Tapi perpisahan yang terjadi buatku cukup berdekatan jaraknya dan aku tuh seperti belum siap aja.

Aku punya lagu favorite waktu jaman SMA, Hard to Say judulnya, dinyanyiin sama band rock asal Amrik, The Used. Lagunya galau banget, apalagi jaman SMA kan jaman alay banget tuh. Nahh apa yang aku rasain tuh sama banget kaya waktu itu. It's really hard to say goodbye, hard to say that I miss them, but yeahh I know they live their own life now, dan aku cuma bisa mendoakan mereka yang baik sama aku, semoga Allah swt selalu melindungi mereka dimana pun mereka berada.

It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone, it's not the same


Lalu aku teringat, udah lama juga aku ga dengerin lagu The Used. Mulailah jariku mencari di youtube, mencari hampir semua band rock, metal dan emo yang pernah aku dengerin jaman aku SMA. Mungkin, aku butuh refreshing biar ga depresi. Mungkin, aku perlu teriak sekencang-kencangnya biar bebanku berkurang dikit. Mungkin juga aku butuh mereka kembali, tapi itu jelas ga mungkin. Apa emang sesusah ya itu menerima perpisahan? 

See you
Wassalam

Sunday, September 23, 2018

Something Big Is Coming

Assalamualaikum

Well, for the past month I've been feeling unwell. Maybe because I always procrastinating some works at home and office. Uhm...and I just know that Path already saying goodbye to all users and before it really closed down, I've been scrolling until the very first I've ever posted. Something about love and unfinished thing about that, giving hint and code, and some more hahahha :P

And...oh yeah, I almost forgot about my daily life. I've been really stressed this past week because some works didn't go well as I think. Even after work hours I always think that I never had enough time to do all the works in the meantime. After going home, I always feel tired and never got to think or doing some works left in office. And in the morning, I'm feeling like "I wish tomorrow never come". So tired to do all the jobs these days with less member at office. Well, I'm not that grumpy person but puh-leaseeee give me time, I can't do this all alone T.T

Uhm...I guess too much story to share hhaha :P That's all I can share, because tomorrow in the morning, I need to faced the truth: Monday Morning, again. Hate to accept the reality but yeah, that's life, and life must goes on, right? See you all Monday fighters, keep fighting!

See you
Wassalam

Monday, September 17, 2018

We Don't Stay Down



Assalamualaikum

Alhamdulillah the project that all EXO-L waiting is finally out! Chanyeol and Sehun doing the best duet so far, from SM Station and for EXO sub unit. And yeah, the song is really easy listening and it has a lot of meaning, simple but catchy. I have to tell you before you watch this MV, Sehun's abs oh myy...I can't stand for long, puh-leaseeee let me stay sane Sehun-ahh

Don't worry, whatever it is
It doesn't matter where you are
Throw away all things that are passing
You can cover your ears for a bit

So we don't stay down
Cuz we don't stay down
Cuz we don't stay down
Cuz we don't stay down
 *Chanyeol, Sehun - We Young

See you
Wassalam

Blue Sky

The sky is so blue and the building is colorful, so do I

Taken @ Tamansari, Bandung
Canon EOS M10
F/8 ISO-100

Monday, September 3, 2018

To Infinity and Beyond

Assalamualaikum

I've seen people with many dreams trying to make it real. I do have dreams too. Not only about going on vacation or being rich, it's all about passion. I've dream about bungee jumping, someday if I brave enough to face the bottom of the tower. I've dream about paragliding too, but I'm not strong enough. But yeah, we're all have dream, right? 

Lalu, bertahun-tahun aku menulis bucket list meskipun banyak yang berubah tapi pada akhirnya aku selalu stuck di satu point, kapan aku bisa mewujudkan semua bucket listku ini? Mungkin tidak semua, mungkin satu persatu akan aku wujudkan tapi aku selalu berpikir bisa engga sih aku melakukan ini? Atau ini hanya angan-angan doang? Bisa jadi aku pengen karena cerita orang lain atau dengar pengalaman orang yang udah pernah melakukan atau pergi ke suatu tempat. Bisa jadi aku cuma penasaran. Bisa jadi aku gamau kalah. Bisa jadi aku ga pengen disebut katro. Bisa jadi juga, aku cuma menulis aja tanpa ada usaha untuk mewujudkannya. 

Aku yakinkan diriku sendiri kalo aja seandainya aku benar-benar bisa melakukan semua daftar keinginanku. Aku yakinkan diriku setiap hari. Aku berubah untuk bisa benar-benar yakin kalo aku ga sekedar ngejar kemauan orang lain tapi karena aku emang punya tekad untuk mewujudkan mimpiku. Aku nabung, mulai dari uang recehan sisa jajan sampe ngurangin maen ke mall. Aku merubah kebiasaanku yang sering pulang malem karena maen dulu atau makan malam diluar mulu, jadi makan dirumah dan makan makanan yang lebih terjangkau kualitasnya. Aku merubah mindsetku untuk selalu percaya kalo aku berusaha sekeras mungkin, hasilnya ga mungkin membuatku menyesal. Tapi aku ga pernah memasang harapan terlalu tinggi, karena aku juga sadar sih usahaku ga sekeras pemikiranku hhahha :P lagian kalopun hasilnya jauh lebih tinggi dari yang diharapkan, kan aku sendiri juga yang merasakan. 

Dan, sampe segede ini aku masih punya mimpi yang ga muluk-muluk kok. Masih simpel dan masih bisa dijangkau sama aku, kalo akunya usaha hhahah :P mungkin untuk sebagian orang bermimpi itu ada batasnya, apalagi kalo udah dewasa. Dewasa itu pilihan, sama seperti mimpi. Kita sendiri yang memilih untuk terus bermimpi atau ikut arus begitu aja.

Ga masalah kalo ikut aturan yang udah dibuat, tapi tetap kita kudu punya prinsip sendiri kalo mimpi kita ga boleh dibatasi oleh aturan orang lain. Karena mimpi itu, kita sendiri yang buat, kita sendiri yang mengusahakan, kita sendiri juga yang merasakan. Iya ga? Iyain aja lah biar cepet. Pegel gue nulis segini aja udah berkali-kali nguap karena ngantuk. Maklum kurang tidur abis nonton drakor :) Oh iya ketemu pemain-pemain di drakor dan artis kpop termasuk dalam bucket listku, mungkin suatu saat aku bisa ketemu di fan meeting atau konser gitu atau mungkin juga suatu saat aku bisa ke korea hhahahha namanya juga mimpi kan bisa pengen apa aja yekaann?

Well, up till now I've been so much satisfied with what I've been achieved, so far. Karena dibalik orang-orang yang merendahkan, nyinyir dan julid, akan ada rasa semangat tinggi untuk membuktikan diri kita ga serendah yang mereka pikirkan. So, keep on fighting! Cheers to more dreams to come, achieved and hardworking days. To infinity and beyond, dreams and make it real :)

See you
Wassalam

I Would Give Up Today

 

Assalamualaikum 

I've been waiting for other woman singer, a new one, I guess. Beside Adele, I've never heard any broken hearted songs again hhahahah...Well, Amy Shark did it. She represented the song very well and I love it. Uhm...I love her messy hair, reminds me of Serena in Gossip Girl but Amy choose dark brown or brunette for her style in this music video.

Tell 'em all I said hi, hope you've been well
You've been asleep while I've been in hell
Tell 'em all I said hi, have a nice day
I'll be just fine, don't worry 'bout me
*Amy Shark - I Said Hi

See you
Wassalam

Thursday, August 30, 2018

Sun Setting in Big City

Sunset and cars are running late

Taken @ toll on the way to Cipete, Jakarta
Canon EOS M10
F/5.6 ISO-250

Thursday, August 16, 2018

Bye Bad Habit~

Assalamualaikum

Bulan ini kayanya aku males banget deh buat ngerjain apapun. Bahkan untuk sekedar update postingan yang ga pernah ada pembacanya ini hahhaha :P That's because I'm too busy to focus on many things that need my attention at the same time #yaelaahh sa ae lu

Well, uhm...I got fever, puked, and gastric acid and influenza too, but I need to get up on time to earn money. I did that everyday even with complain too hhahaha :) Tapi ya dijalanin aja sih meskipun nyebelin tapi kan karena butuh mau gimana lagi yekaan? 

Aku sebenarnya punya banyak rencana untuk bulan ini tapi hampir semuanya ga ada yang jalan. Termasuk rencana jalan-jalan. Udah mumet gue sama dunia ini #eeaaa. Tapi ternyata entah karena sikap males gerak ini bikin aku makin ga gerak-gerak sama sekali. Bahkan setiap weekend aku cuma di kamar aja, begitu laper tinggal pesen go food atau kalo pengen jajan keluar ke indomaret doang abis tuh masuk kamar lagi. Bener-bener mager banget. Trus paling gogoleran doang sambil nonton drakor, yeahh drakor is lyfe #koreandramalovers

Oh iya, akhir-akhir aku seneng banget nyobain skin care baru. Yaa awalnya sih gegara males ke klinik dokter kulit gitu. Dulu pernah, lumayan rajin sih perawatan dan emang aku akuin wajah tuh rasanya halus dan mulus banget meskipun ga instan hasilnya tapi emang keliatan perbedaannya. Ga terasa di waktu tapi terasa di dompet. Iya, karena sekali perawatan abis dah tuh jajan sebulan lalu rasanya aku ingin nangis di pojokan aja T.T sedih tauuu duit jajan abis buat muke gile ini. Trus karena aku makin males keluar-keluar rumah dan berhubung setahun terakhir ini aku nabung banget buat jalan-jalan jadi yaudah deh aku mencoba memangkas biaya yang bisa dipangkas termasuk masalah kulit wajah. Jadi aku lebih memilih fokus ke skin care aja daripada make up. Padahal dulu aku bergantung banget sama foundie dan concealer buat nutupin bekas jerawat, tapi sekarang aku berusaha untuk berani tampil tanpa foundie dan concealer cuma pake serum sama sunscreen aja untuk ngilangin noda hitam sama bekas jerawat hahhaha

Trus aku juga mencoba untuk meninggalkan kebiasaan belanja yang ga penting. Makanya aku sebenarnya bersyukur sama sikap magerku ini karena aku ga sering keluar rumah untuk hal yang ga penting. Lumayan juga sih duitnya buat ditabung. Kalo yang lain buat belanja baju, tas dan sepatu, aku sih cukup jalan-jalan aja udah seneng hhahaha :) yaiyalah siapa juga yang ga seneng kalo diajak jalan-jalan. Tapi kan beda yaa sensasinya kalo jalan-jalan pake duit dari hasil nabung, kerasa aja  kalo nabungnya itu pas lagi susah tapi kalo inget kudu nabung karena ada yang dipengenin pasti dibela-belain buat nyisihkan sebagian duit yang ada. Dan alhamdulillah, perlahan tapi pasti, bucket listku banyak yang udah tercapai cihuuuyy banget ga tuh?

Sebenernya kalo kita punya keinginan yang kuat, sadar ga sadar otak kita akan bekerja untuk mewujudkan keinginan kita itu. Kalo kita pengen berubah lebih baik, otak juga akan membantu kita untuk berusaha menjadi lebih baik. Tapi kalo keinginan kita ga sekuat yang kita inginkan, otak juga ogah-ogahan buat bantuin kita mencapai keinginan kita. That's why I'm pushing harder myself than ever kalo ada sesuatu yang dipengenin, terutama untuk mewujudkan semua daftar yang ada di bucket list, meskipun harus ada yang dikorbanin termasuk kebiasaan lama yang dampaknya ngaruh banget dalam hidup aku, apalagi dalam dompetku T.T

I'm so ready to say goodbye bad habit, are you?

See you
Wassalam

Tuesday, August 7, 2018

Living Like in Scenario


Assalamualaikum

When I'm tired of waiting for EXO's comeback, I've found this easy listening song from my friend's suggestion. It's because she is a Inner Circle, Winner fandom name, and because Winner and iKON work under the same agency so that's why she really knows about this thing. And, uhm..I think, that...I love B.I, Bobby and June voice in here, specially when B.I and Bobby rap their lines and June's deep voice reminds me of T.O.P Big Bang, not that deep as T.O.P but sure his voice is sweet.

We were in love
We met and became a memory that can't be erased
It was a commendable melodrama 
A pretty good ending
That's all I need
I love you
*iKON - Love Scenario

See you
Wassalam

Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Human or Robot?

Assalamualaikum

Selalu aja yaa, drakor yang aku tonton agak telat itu pasti aku ga sangka-sangka banget kalo jalan ceritanya sebenarnya bagus. Awalnya aku tuh nonton Secretary Kim sama That Man Oh Soo aja, terus aku direkomendasiin sama temen kalo drama Are You Human juga bagus. Aaaandd yes, I'm watching that drama too

Pemeran utama prianya adalah Seo Kang Joon, yang memerankan tokoh manusia dan robotnya, dan doi termasuk list cogan korea yang gue idolain hhahahah :) Udah banyak banget dramanya Kang Joon yang aku tonton dan jujur, disini doi gantenggg baaatt gewlaaa sampe pusing guee hahahhaha dan coba kalian bayangkan, bisa ga sih kita jatuh cinta sama robot? Jawabannya: bisa, bisa banget! Aku contohnya, aku jatuh cinta banget sama si robotnya daripada manusianya hahahahha :P 

Awalnya aku sama sekali ga tertarik nonton drama tentang robot-robot gini, kenapa? Karena maybe it's boring, gue males mikir yang berat, beban hidup gue aja udah berat ngapain juga nambah-nambah beban hahhaha...tapi serius deh, ini drama sama sekali ga masuk listku. Tapi karena temenku rekomendasiin dan aktornya adalah Seo Kang Joon, I'll try and addicted to him more and more.

Aku udah pernah nonton drama Seo Kang Joon yang lain, seperti Cheese in The Trap dan Entourage, lalu variety show seperti Roommate dan Law of The Jungle. Tapi aku akuin nih, akting Kang Joon makin lama makin bagus. Apalagi di drama Are You Human ini doi berperan ganda, menjadi Nam Shin versi manusia asli dan Nam Shin III versi robot. Aktingnya saat memerankan manusia dan robot beda banget, keliatan dari tatapan nanarnya si robot dan mata kejamnya si manusia (gatau sih gue istilahnya paan). Daaann, poin paling pentingnya nih matanya Kang Joon keren banget, warnanya cokelat uwuuu gemaaayyy >.<


Aku sih udah ngefans dari jaman doi maen di Roommate, kaya anak-anak yang masih polos gitu, masih baru terjun di dunia entertainment hahhahaha masih cupu tapi ganteng eh gimana ya, yaa gitu lah pokonya. Apalagi doi pernah jadi guest di Superman Returns dan ngasuh The Quintets anaknya Lee Dong Gook, yang bahkan babehnya aja suka nyerah dan kecapean kalo ngasuh mereka. Fix, Seo Kang Joon nih suamiable banget ihh aku suka yampuunn jangan ganteng-ganteng napaaa kan pusing gue jadinyaaa :O

See you
Wassalam

Friday, July 13, 2018

Let Me Apologize

 

Assalamualaikum

I heard this song because Adam Levine voice is sexy hhahah :) and I don't know why I love the broken-hearted lyrics even if the music sounds fun or upbeat, I love to play it again and again. Fyi, somehow it still stuck and I always questioning myself: Why would he choose "Maroon 5" instead of his name? Up till now I just know his name not his band (sorry, my bad)

Oh, let me apologize
I'll make up, make up, make up, make up for all those times
Your love, I don't wanna lose
I'm beggin', beggin', beggin', beggin', I'm beggin' you

Wait, can you turn around, can you turn around?
Just wait, can we work this out, can we work this out?
Just wait, can you come here please? 'Cause I wanna be with you
*Maroon 5 - Wait

See you
Wassalam

Thursday, July 12, 2018

You're the Flower

Want to take you home but you're not mine.

Taken @ Art Deco Luxury Hotel & Residence, Bandung
Canon EOS M10
F/5.6 ISO-200

Monday, July 2, 2018

You're Happy Without Me


Assalamualaikum

During the Eid, when me and my family drive to uptown we're listening to my brother's playlist which is very easy listening and sounds miserable too. After a long search to get some info from the singer, now I knew it. The singer is Labrinth which is his stage name and his real name is Timothy Lee McKenzie and he is a British musician. Well yeah, that's really the answer to my question this whole time. When I was wondering why does his voice so catchy to my ear and very british accent, but then I denied because mostly singer I heard recently are from USA. 

So, this one is a very heartbroken song I ever heard during my holiday. But why would I feel heartbroken when I feel blessed with the Eid vibes around me? You know what, I don't know either why. Just listening to the song makes me really into it. I enjoyably listening this song over and over again.

And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
*Labrinth - Jealous

See you
Wassalam

Kamu Adalah

Assalamualaikum

Kamu adalah hari yang selalu aku hindari
Kamu adalah jalan yang tak pernah aku lewati
Kamu adalah tempat yang tak mungkin aku singgahi
Kamu adalah pintu yang tertutup rapat
Kamu adalah cita-cita tanpa usaha
Kamu adalah cinta tanpa rasa
Kamu adalah rindu yang memudar

Kamu adalah do'aku yang entah sudah ke berapa kali aku lantunkan namun pada akhirnya aku menyerah.
Karena kamu adalah sepenggal kisah yang aku tak tahu kapan aku mulai melupakannya.
Mungkin, kamu adalah coretan masa lalu di kertas kosongku.
Namun, aku selalu berharap kamu adalah barisan rencana di dalam buku agendaku.

Meski kini, kamu adalah ideku, kamu adalah inspirasiku, kamu adalah strategiku. Tapi kamu hanyalah kumpulan puisi dalam hatiku yang tak akan pernah aku publikasikan. Karena kamu adalah egoku yang pergi jauh dan tak bisa aku kejar.


*Kamu adalah. 28062018@10.04pm

See you
Wassalam

Thursday, June 28, 2018

The Long Holiday Effect

Assalamualaikum

After the whole week doing the-rush-hour-job, finally I could rest for a long time. Even after Eid Fitr, I do resting my body and mind from work thingy. I didn't use my phone except for watching and downloading korean drama, umm...maybe I did search for online shopping but just for a couple hours not all day using my phone. I didn't read the message people who sent me Eid greetings until now. Too lazy to check up on my phone.

So, uhm... I, am not ready yet to face the truth. Yeah, it's going to be hard to say, specially for me. I do. I'm not ready to work again after this long holiday. I could do something I love but not that works. I already miss my holiday even if I just landed. I love the Ramadhan vibes everywhere. I like the beautiful fireworks at Taqbir night. I do miss my main dishes at Eid Fitr. 

I don't have anything to write anymore because I can't think straight right now, I can't do anything for tomorrow works which is a lot works to do, like A LOT. My brain really stuck right now and my body aches everytime I move. And yeaaahhh, that's only an excuse for tomorrow hhahahahha 

Puh-leaseeeee take me back to first Ramadhan 😭😭😭 I can't deal with this kind of long holiday effect. I miss Ramadhan, I miss Eid Fitr, I miss fireworks, I miss ketupat and opor and I miss you. Yes, you. You who read this, I miss you. But can you please turn back the time when we meet the first day of Ramadhan? Please? Pleaseee?? 

See you
Wasalam

Tuesday, June 5, 2018

Come And Go, or Stay?

Whatever comes, let it come. 
Whatever stays, let it stay. 
Whatever goes, let it go.

Taken @ Mount Bromo, Malang
Samsung A5 2017
F/2.0 ISO-50
Vsco Cam

Everything in Between

Assalamualaikum

I know I haven't posted anything in a long time, in my opinion this time is the most unproductive time of mine because something happen about my work. Well that's not the only reason, but the point is I'm feeling insecure about my life, my work, my love life and umm...my future, i guess.

I do believe that everything happens for a reason. I do believe that Allah swt never forget those who believe in Allah swt and Rasulullah saw. I do believe I can get whatever I want if I do something good to everyone or at least to the people around me. I do. 

I'm at the edge of feeling sincere and whole-heartedly about what happens to me, myself. I guess I accepted any other challenge in my life but somehow I don't think I can handle it. I don't feel good as well as the others but it's like I'm not really confidence about my strength and my effort. And again, I don't have people who can relate into it or know how does it feel when you're feeling insecure but no one care, no one sense and not a single person you can talk to. 

Well, I can say I'm too shy to say those things because I'm afraid about what they might say about me. So I keep that in mind, only for me. Oh I almost forgot, yesterday on 1st June my age is plus one from last year hhaha, so yeah that's a matter too. 

See you
Wassalam

Monday, May 14, 2018

Time to Walk Away


Assalamualaikum

My friend, whenever and wherever, always put this song on the list of his car. I guess he just knew this song from some audition in TV, and because of him, I thought the same too, I just knew that James Bay's music very easy listening. And uhm...I love a man that can play instrument, especially when they're playing guitar and singing at the same time, hhaha :) Reminds me of John Mayer and Shawn Mendes when I think about the guitar guy.

I used to recognize myself
It's funny how reflections change
When we're becoming something else
I think it's time to walk away

So come on, let it go

Just let it be
Why don't you be you
And I'll be me?
Everything that's broke
Leave it to the breeze
Why don't you be you
And I'll be me?
And I'll be me
*James Bay - Let It Go

See you
Wassalam

Friday, May 11, 2018

Downloading...The Holy Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum,

I don't think that this month really come so fast. But sure, I always love Ramadhan, even from the advertising on the TV or in the street, I knew that this atmosphere for the Holy Ramadhan. And, uhmm...I thought I miss Mecca and Medina too, T.T


That orange juice reminds me of my umrah pilgrimage. I bought that before strolling around the mosque and before Dzuhur time, because the weather was really hot it makes me want to drink again and again. I always thought that if I could do umrah or hajj pilgrimage in Ramadhan, but I think that I can't do that. I'm weak, I can't stand the temperature in Mecca and Medina. It was hot but windy, and my throat was drying. Fortunately, around the mosque there were so many zamzam water and it's free! Alhamdulillah. 

I need to be a better person this Ramadhan. I have to. But something I remember now is, where did I put my new praying mat? I bought that from Medina and now I forget when the last time I see and put that. Sadly, I haven't cleaning up yet. My suitcase and backpack still on the floor, untouched since I came from umrah. But that can't be lowering my Ramadhan spirit, I still have time to preparing myself physically and mentally. Hope you guys welcoming Ramadhan in a good condition, too.

See you
Wassalam

Friday, April 27, 2018

Better I Move to Another Place

Assalamualaikum

Last night, I was watching Avengers Infinity War. It was soooo many people there. I thought that it maybe little quiet because I chose the second day not the first day or the premiere day, because... I know that day was the very hectic and I can't. 


So, I was really happy and very excited because I saw Iron Man again ❤ Don't know why but he's really got my attention since day one of the Iron Man first movie hhahah :) and also Doctor Strange, I love his accent, I do. And uhmm... to be honest, I really impressed by Wakanda. The King, the Dora Milaje, the Tribe, the Technology, and also the environment made in Wakanda. 

Once we step outside the cinema, I told my friend,"I wish I live in Wakanda. Better if I move soon as possible. I hate being in this earth, so boring". But he said,"People who lived there are black, you're not accepted there. Beside, they're all have skills, what do you have to survive and stay alive there?". Oh crap! I forgot. I guess I'd better choose another place to live and stay sane. But, with someone beside me hhaha... maybe Iron Man? Or Doctor Strange? Oh yeah I know, they're all in relationship. Maybe I choose Captain America as well :D 

I love superheroes movie, but my heart always for Iron Man. I love you to the moon and back and forth and back again, Tony Stark and Iron Man and Robert Downey Jr. Much loveeee ❤❤❤

See you
Wassalam

Tuesday, April 24, 2018

Iya-in Aja

Assalamualaikum

Pernah ga sih ngerasa kzl to the max? Pernah pengen ngejambak muka orang? Pernah? Pernah ga? Aku pernah, sering malah hhaha :D Biasanya aku kesal saat itu aja, abis itu yaudah biasa aja. Tapi yang paling parah adalah saat aku udah males ngomong, jaga jarak dan menghindari kontak mata dengan orang tersebut. Menurutku itu adalah jalan keluar paling gampang yang sering aku lakukan kalo udah males banget untuk berinteraksi dengan orang itu. 

Kenapa sih bisa kesal segitunya amat? Ada banyak alasan, dalam hal ini salah satunya adalah some people tell bad story about you even if you treat them very good and kindly. Gatau juga sih maksudnya apaan, cari perhatian kali yee? Tapi emang apa untungnya ya nyeritain kejelekan kita ke orang lain? Ya mungkin ada untungnya buat doi, tapi bisa jadi jelek buat image kita. Padahal kita udah berbuat baik sama mereka, kita ga ada nyari masalah, ga ada alasan untuk nyari musuh. Well, people change. You should too. Iya, tapi kita berubah ke arah yang lebih baik dong jangan ikutin arus yang ga bener. Masa sih sepanjang hidup mau ikut arus ga bener mulu? Hellaawww...kiamat udah dekat my friend, geura tobat lah bisi isuk hese napas.

sumber: ig @theclassypeople

Tapi aku juga heran sih, orang-orang yang dikasi info kadang maen telen gitu aja ga pake di kunyah dulu infonya. Padahal bisa jadi aja orang yang ngasi info ini maksudnya buat menghasut atau untuk membuat orang lain benci dengan kita. Balik lagi ke diri sendiri sih ya itu mah. Kalo kamu rada pinter sedikit aja pasti kamu pake otak kalo dapet info apalagi kalo isinya agak mencurigakan. Jaman sekarang nih gampang banget hasut-menghasut, mengkambing-hitamkan seseorang, namanya juga namanyaaaa...

Dan buat orang-orang yang udah menyebar kebencian, alhamdulillah semoga dosaku berkurang karena bukan aku yang melakukan itu. Lagian kenapa sih niat amat mau jelekin orang? Kurang baik apa coba gue nih? (Ceilehh pamer). Yaa kadang orang-orang cuma inget pas momen jeleknya doang, padahal momen saat aku baik sama mereka ga inget. Boro-boro inget dah, bilang makasih aja kaga -,- kan kurang ajyaarrr ya? Yaudah deh semoga Allah swt memberi hidayah kepada orang-orang seperti mereka dan semoga Allah swt menjauhkan aku dan kita semua dari hal-hal demikian, setuju? Setuju ga? Aminin dong, AAMIIN.

See you
Wassalam

Monday, April 23, 2018

Harus Lebih Baik


Assalamualaikum

Yuhuuu...My fave singer with her new song. I love her song, her video music, her concept and I love everything about her. This one is simple, catchy, edgy, and out of the box. Lastly, don't forget to be happy :)

Kamu kamu harus bahagia
Kamu kamu harus bahagia

Dan ingatlah untukmu yang paling penting
Kita harus bahagia
*Yura Yunita - Harus Bahagia

See you
Wassalam

Too Lazy to Get Up

Assalamualaikum

Udah lama banget aku ga update nih, selain karena kemaren aku abis pulang umroh, yaa aku males sih sebenarnya. Males ngapa-ngapain banget deh. Males kerja, males gerak, males ngomong, alhamdulillahnya ga sampe males hidup hhahahha :P Well anyway, ngomongin masalah males nih emang susah kalo gada niat buat ga males. Dari niat aja udah males gimana mau gerak coba? Tapi kadang aku juga suka maksain diri sendiri biar ga males-males banget, cuma yaa badannya udah kaku banget gimana doongg? T.T

Emang kerasa banget sih kegiatan di arab sono sama di indo nih. Kalo kemaren kan judulnya umroh ya jelas isinya hanya ibadah aja, bahkan aku gada sama sekali mikirin kerjaan. Tenang dan damai. Aman sentosa selamanya. Awalnya sih itu yang aku rasakan, ternyata yaa teteuupp ya cyiinn ada aja telponan urusan kerjaan. Untungnya sih ga bikin mood gue turun, karena segala sesuatu yang berkaitan dengan kerjaan tuh pasti bikin mood turun naik banget. Di Madinah dan Makkah, kerjaanku sholat, ngaji, tidur, makan, gitu aja terus. Paling di sela-sela waktu menjelang sholat, aku jalan-jalan di sekitar hotel sekalian belanja. Kadang-kadang juga aku jalan-jalan ngelilingin masjid karena penasaran seberapa luasnya dan ternyata emang luas banget sampe air minum sebotol ga kerasa udah abis aja. 


Aku menikmati banget perjalanan ibadahku disana. Ga cuma sekedar jalan-jalan, tapi juga ibadah yang emang bener-bener ibadah. Ga mikirin apa-apa deh selain ibadah. Meskipun kurang tidur, tapi aku senang aja tuh disana. Alhamdulillahnya ga sampe kurang makan hhahaha :D karena makanan dari hotel aja udah melimpah banget gileee deh sampe aku bawa bekal buat di kamar dan buat ke mesjid :) Dan alhamdulillahnya lagi, pembimbingnya baik banget, kalo ngasi tau tuh ga sok tua gitu, pokonya orangnya asik banget lah, ustad gaul gitu hhahah 

Tapi kebahagiaanku itu ternyata tidak berlangsung lama, karena begitu balik ke Indonesia aku dihadapkan pada kenyataan. Iya guys, realita kehidupan gue yang sesungguhnya. SO SAD. Tapi ya mau gimana lagi, kalo ga gitu yaa ga makan dong gue yekaann? Begitu aku balik kok rasanya ada yang hampa ya, sampe semingguan aku di rumah aku nangis. Mau tidur nangis, mau makan nangis, mau sholat nangis, abis sholat nangis, bangun tidur juga nangis. Kalo kata temenku sih mungkin aku kangen sama Ka'bah, bisa jadi juga aku kangen kegiatan selama disana. Mungkin ada benarnya juga. Mungkin aku kangen. Mungkin juga aku belum sepenuhnya menerima kalo aku udah di Indonesia, udah bukan di Madinah dan Makkah. Dan begitu aku mulai kerja, aku sering dateng telat. Telat banget malahan. Padahal aku bangun udah pagi banget, jam 7 udah rapi tapi ga berangkat-berangkat, malah aku suka bengong gitu, kadang liatin hp, kadang bengong liat sajadah abis sholat. 

Aku selalu berdoa semoga pribadiku berubah ke arah yang lebih baik, Insya Allah. Aku pun sedang berusaha. Tapi kalo masalah males yaa gimana sih ya, udah males ajalah. Apalagi berangkat kerja, duilee sumveh deh males banget. Kalo udah males gitu, kadang aku suka nanya ke diri sendiri, "Apa mending balik lagi aja kali ya ke Arab? Jadi petugas kebersihan masjidnya juga gapapa deh, daripada disini males banget gue ngapa-ngapain". Pertanyaan itu ga pernah terjawab, karena pada akhirnya aku gerak juga berangkat ngantor. Demi masa depan, demi uang makan, demi biaya pergaulan remaja masa kini dan demi tabungan umroh dan haji (Insya Allah). Banyak banget ya tanggungan hidup gue? Hhahahha 

See you
Wassalam

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

I Miss You, Always Do

I already miss you, even when I haven't left yet...

Taken @ Masjidil Haram, Makkah Al Mukarramah 
Canon EOS M10
F/5.6 ISO-200

Tuesday, March 13, 2018

Merayakan Kehilangan


Assalamualaikum

Tadi malam aku sempat cuci mata liat-liat instastory seorang penulis idolaku, Ika Natassa. Well, I really adore her. Why? Karena cara penyampaian dia benar-benar lugas banget, gampang banget diterima oleh akal sehat ini, maklum makin tua makin jompo kalo baca yang berat-berat. Dan dalam instastorynya itu dibahas tentang rasa kehilangan. 

Salah satunya, tentang rasa kehilangan yang jadi tema di salah satu novelnya. Rasa kehilangan seorang ibu yang baru saja melahirkan anaknya, lalu hanya berselang beberapa jam, anaknya tersebut meninggal dunia. Mungkin untuk yang belum pernah merasakan ya pasti bakalan ngerasa apa yang dirasakan oleh si ibu tersebut kayanya lebay banget gitu. Tapi untuk yang merasakan, itu sebuah peristiwa yang sulit untuk dilupakan dan bisa jadi ga akan dilupakan seumur hidupnya. Bayangkan aja, selama 9 bulan mengandung, lalu tiba saatnya bayi tersebut bertemu dengan ortunya ternyata Tuhan berkehendak lain. Jelas bukan peristiwa biasa aja kan? 

Aku juga merasa seperti itu. Susah rasanya melupakan rasa kehilangan. Bukan susah move on. Kalo kehilangan itu adalah kehilangan yang sekiranya memang ga akan kembali lagi ya jelas dong gue susah untuk ngelupainnya. Misalnya kehilangan barang yang kita sukai, kehilangan momen bagus saat ada kejadian tertentu atau yang paling sedih adalah kehilangan orang tua atau anggota keluarga. Lebay? Biarin aja. Namanya juga kehilangan. Sama seperti capture-an aku dari instastorynya Ika Natassa. Setiap orang itu menghadapi kehilangan dengan caranya masing-masing. Asal jangan sampe kehilangan iman aja, mati aja lu sekalian kalo ga punya iman hidup di dunia ini. #ups

Sekian aja deh postingannya, intinya aku juga masih merasa kehilangan dan cara aku menangani kehilangan itu terserah aku mau gimana caranya yang penting ga ngerugiin orang lain. At least, I don't lost my mind. Aku masih sadar bahwa kehilangan adalah salah satu dari sekian banyak tahap dalam hidup yang harus dilalui, tapi tetap saja, susah untuk menerima kenyataan. Iya ga sih? Iyain aja deh.

See you
Wassalam 

Monday, March 12, 2018

Dinner at 9



Assalamualaikum

Yes! EXO is back. But wait, this time only the leader comeback with his single for SM Station featuring Jane Jang. I don't know why but I love this duet very much. I love Jane Jang's voice, and this is the first time I hear Suho's voice without the members. And the last one is, I love Suho's stare #hhahah

Nine o'clock happening at the same time
So without any fuss 
Show each other back
The dining will be done
*EXO Suho, Jane Jang - Dinner

See you
Wassalam

Thursday, March 1, 2018

When I'm With You


Assalamualaikum

Just like Johnny Stimson, I knew Lauv from Youtube, but I recently heard his song over the radio everyday. His voice is so eargasm and catchy at the same time, and uhm..he's handsome too :) Well, I love his lyrics so bad, you know why~ 

I like me better when I'm with you
I like me better when I'm with you
I knew from the first time, I'd stay for a long time
'Cause I like me better when...
I like me better when I'm with you
*Lauv - I Like Me Better

See you
Wassalam

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

May I...

Assalamualaikum

I can't see clearly, maybe because I have astigmatism. Therefore, everything seems blurry to me, but I can get through it. I try and I can. I did it. I can't feel anything, not because I lost my appetite but surely because I won't feel any bitter feeling, I could but I choose not to. Simply because I won't feel sad, i didn't want to. It hurts. It really hurts me. So much. I just can't...

It feels like I have no right to be happy. I try everything I could. I push my limits. I pull every chances I had. I did every single thing I could. But at the time, I realize something. Something I never imagine. Something really stuck on my mind.

Then I ask myself, may I feel a happiness, again? Even if for a second in life? May I...? I didn't put on high expectation, but please for one more chance. May I have a chance again? May I take it home and never return it back? May I...?

Please, give me a chance. I'm tired holding these tears. I'm hopeless to see the brightest shine. I would not say this if not necessary but I do need that, the happiness.

May I have a chance to see that happiness? May I be able to feel that happiness again? Or maybe I'm the happiness? If that so, then why do I feel lonely even in a crowded place? May I know why? May I...?

May I...?. 130218@11.19pm

See you
Wassalam

Monday, February 12, 2018

I Called You

I called you, even if I knew you never there. 

Diambil di Museum Angkut, Malang
Samsung A5 2017
F/2.0 ISO-160
Vsco Cam

Tuesday, January 23, 2018

You Give Me Deja Vu


Assalamualaikum

I love Johnny Stimson's song, Honeymoon. His voice so bright and soft, of course I love that too! The second time I heard this song, I was like "Why do I have to love this song?" I mean that, I'm not going on honeymoon at all, but this song is sweet, even for a single person. 

You give me deja vu
Like I've been waiting my whole life
To find that view
Cause when I'm looking at your eyes
I go from California to Timbuktu
Back to dancing in the living room
If I got you
Baby everyday's a honeymoon
*Johnny Stimson - Honeymoon

See you
Wassalam

Long Way To Go

Once a year, go some place you've never been before
-Dalai Lama-

Diambil di Stasiun Pasar Turi, Surabaya
Samsung A5 2017
F/2.0 ISO-100
Vsco Cam

Thursday, January 4, 2018

Something I Didn't Realize

Assalamualaikum

Well, this is it. Welcome to 2018 and all best wishes spread to the world. I know it might sounds cliche as well, but yeah it is. It's not that "New Year, New Me" at all but one thing for sure, I'm ready for everything happens in this year. Kind of. 

I know I'm not perfect yet, but we'll try to, right? So, starting from the beginning of the year, I'm trying my best, always will, always do. Actually, i'm preparing myself to be more religious and humble to other people. I know that everything in this world, even my breath and life only for temporary. It will back to God, no matter what. That's something I didn't realize: I might lose something precious, even if I really need that. So, I'm preparing myself to accept that reality, too. I'm trying and training hard my brain, heart and life to be more sincere to every occasion that happens in me, my life actually. 

So, I'm not that ready yet, but I'll try to. And still, I push my limits, praying hard, and do my best. And uhm...kind of busy this week, but sure, I'll try to keep writing too. I love writing and blogging, it heals me. See you next post and have a nice new year :)

See you
Wassalam