The Long Holiday Effect

Assalamualaikum

After the whole week doing the-rush-hour-job, finally I could rest for a long time. Even after Eid Fitr, I do resting my body and mind from work thingy. I didn't use my phone except for watching and downloading korean drama, umm...maybe I did search for online shopping but just for a couple hours not all day using my phone. I didn't read the message people who sent me Eid greetings until now. Too lazy to check up on my phone.

So, uhm... I, am not ready yet to face the truth. Yeah, it's going to be hard to say, specially for me. I do. I'm not ready to work again after this long holiday. I could do something I love but not that works. I already miss my holiday even if I just landed. I love the Ramadhan vibes everywhere. I like the beautiful fireworks at Taqbir night. I do miss my main dishes at Eid Fitr. 

I don't have anything to write anymore because I can't think straight right now, I can't do anything for tomorrow works which is a lot works to do, like A LOT. My brain really stuck right now and my body aches everytime I move. And yeaaahhh, that's only an excuse for tomorrow hhahahahha 

Puh-leaseeeee take me back to first Ramadhan 😭😭😭 I can't deal with this kind of long holiday effect. I miss Ramadhan, I miss Eid Fitr, I miss fireworks, I miss ketupat and opor and I miss you. Yes, you. You who read this, I miss you. But can you please turn back the time when we meet the first day of Ramadhan? Please? Pleaseee?? 

See you

Wasalam

Come And Go, or Stay?

Whatever comes, let it come. 

Whatever stays, let it stay. 

Whatever goes, let it go.

Taken @ Mount Bromo, Malang

Samsung A5 2017

F/2.0 ISO-50

Vsco Cam

Everything in Between

Assalamualaikum

I know I haven't posted anything in a long time, in my opinion this time is the most unproductive time of mine because something happen about my work. Well that's not the only reason, but the point is I'm feeling insecure about my life, my work, my love life and umm...my future, i guess.

I do believe that everything happens for a reason. I do believe that Allah swt never forget those who believe in Allah swt and Rasulullah saw. I do believe I can get whatever I want if I do something good to everyone or at least to the people around me. I do. 

I'm at the edge of feeling sincere and whole-heartedly about what happens to me, myself. I guess I accepted any other challenge in my life but somehow I don't think I can handle it. I don't feel good as well as the others but it's like I'm not really confidence about my strength and my effort. And again, I don't have people who can relate into it or know how does it feel when you're feeling insecure but no one care, no one sense and not a single person you can talk to. 

Well, I can say I'm too shy to say those things because I'm afraid about what they might say about me. So I keep that in mind, only for me. Oh I almost forgot, yesterday on 1st June my age is plus one from last year hhaha, so yeah that's a matter too. 

See you

Wassalam